I guess that is how I am feeling right about now. I guess I feel that if I don’t go hard then will I really go home? I mean God calls us to a faith that is hard. A faith that is rough and you definitely get some bumps and bruises on the way, but how will you handle the bruises? I don’t want to run from my calling. I know my purpose, I know who I am in Christ, so why should I stop because of some pain?
In the movie “THE PROGRAM” there is a top prospect freshman who comes in. He is talented and is definitely made for the game. He has speed, he can read the field, people cheer for him. It is great, but in a practice before the season started he gets hit and fumbles the ball. He gets banged up a bit by his own teammate.
I think God has been asking me that question. Am I injured or hurt? If I am injured then I need to stop, but if I am just hurt, then go harder!!
Will I be timid or will I ride and run faster than ever before so the Kingdom is magnified through the works of Christ through me? I am not injured!! I am just bruised, and a scratch here and there, but not injured!!
It is time to do ministry harder and stronger than ever before. God I praise you for the fire!! I thank you for the friends and family who support Natasha and I. I love all of you!
This may sound lame to some of you reading, but I feel renewed! I feel like I am not empty for the first time in a long time! I was hurt, I still may be a little, but I am going Hard so when I do Go home I will hear Well done my good and faithful servant!
What will you do?
So far this has been a decent Christmas season. It has been great to spend time with the wife. It has been great to spend time with friends. However, I feel like I have been doing nothing. I don’t know, I guess it feels alright, but at the same time I feel like I need to always be doing something. Why is that? I think sometimes that is how I am. I just always feel the need to be moving around or just doing anything. I always feel uncomfortable just sitting on the couch, even if I know it is something I should be doing. I don’t like to sleep in, even if I know it is going to be better for me in the long run. I don’t know. I feel like there is so much for me to do, but so little time and energy to do it.
Why is it that people like to be better than other people? I have found that unfortunately people have this complex that causes them to put others down or the complex does not allow them to even believe that possibly others could be better than they are. I feel like we have allowed ourselves to take the social norm that says we need to stomp on or trample anyone or anything that may be in our way a little too far. We even overlook our friendships in this situation.
We even have a tendency to look at our friends in the same way. We look at them as our enemy instead of embracing them and trying to finish the race together. We all want to be at the top, but it seems like we forget that we need to embrace the bottom, where we start, before we can truly reach the top.
I find it unfortunate when I hear of people who put themselves on a platform above everyone else. It is an unfortunate place to be because someday they may find themselves being knocked down with nobody around who really wants to help them, but may feel obligated.
The real question is who are we truly better than? Why is it that we can’t seem to understand we aren’t the greatest at anything? We all have talents in different areas and we should learn how to praise each other in those abilities instead of getting jealous and knocking people down just to get our jollies. It is a weird way to please yourself in my opinion.
I am suggest something a little far fetched and possibly way to out there, but it is worth a shot. Let’s try CARING about EACH OTHER and QUIT CARING about how GREAT WE ARE as INDIVIDUALS!!! We are meant to live together on this earth to make it a better place, but as long as we battle each other we might as well kiss our butts goodbye and watch our plastic (MEAN GIRLS reference) relationships dissipate as we go trying to be better than everyone else. WHICH, by the way, is IMPOSSIBLE!!!